I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder last week. They've been speculating for over a year now; and apparently they have all the evidence they need..
Right now; I feel manic- my thoughts are racing, I have so much energy...I haven't slept much the last 3 days, and lastly I had a scary out burst of...I wouldn't say anger; really...it was more like severe agitation. The smallest thing set me off. I wanted to hurt someone. Maybe myself; or someone else; but I wanted to hurt myself to stop me from hurting anyone else...Of course I didn't tell anyone that part; so no one took me very seriously..(i was at work at the time; and I didn't want anyone to think I was suicidal or anything...)After I cried, and punched myself in the leg as hard as i could a few times...It faded away; but It scared me very much...I'm scared it may happen again. I'm willing to hurt myself over and over again in order to keep me from hurting someone else...When I've been in this state before; I've never had this much irritation, so It was very strange..
Sorry for the long winded paragraph...I just wanted to see if this is a normal part of "Mania"...the agitation, the urge to harm...you know..