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Using laxatives this way can actually remove the body's ability to create bowel movements on it's own. It's extremely dangerous (and nasty lol) to use them like this. If you want to lose weight you need to understand how the body works. Starvation will get you into the hospital - it will not make you thin because the body will not allow you to do this.

1.Your body NEEDS food. You can't live without it or starve yourself. The body's main function is survival - it is not looking pretty. When you starve yourself your body goes into what's called "starvation mode." When the body isn't getting fat and nutrients to fuel itself it DECREASES the amount of fat you can lose. This is useful if you're stranded on a desert island with no food to eat. The second function of starvation mode is that it will take DOUBLE the fat from the next food items you eat to compensate for the the food you missed out on. That can actually cause weight GAIN!! And if you try to work around that and don't eat anything during starvation mode you will simply get sick because the body has no fuel to run on. That's why people on crappy diets always relapse and look even bigger. You will destroy your body long before weight loss occurs. I am sorry to be blunt but you need to know this so that you don't make things worse.

2. Food is FUEL. Your body needs it like a car needs gas. No fuel no go! Otherwise your body will STEAL nutrients from other parts of your body and try to put it in other areas. In extreme cases the body may take nutrients from your hair to keep itself going. That causes hair loss. So we NEVER EVER want to starve ourselves.

To lose weight you don't just stop eating. You EXERCISE and you eat SMART!! You need to eat healthy foods and you need to eat in intervals so that your body has the energy you need to go. And since you're going to start exercising your body will need fuel now more than ever to do all those workouts.

It's all about calories. You need to be in a situation where exercise causes you to lose more calories than you take in from eating. This creates weight loss. All this stuff has been said before so you should do some research online to find great plan. I posted earlier today on what happened to me:
http://forums.psychcentral.com/showt...43#post2862443
And I wasn't even trying to starve myself...

I felt that was important to get out of the way because you can't just will your body to work however you want it to. You have to understand how it works to get it working the way you want it to. If you ever lift weights (you don't have to) you will find that simple things like the orientation of your arms changes the muscles that are worked. The body is simple but complicated as well.

But more importantly you have to try and love yourself. Losing weight is not going to change the outlook you have on yourself. You might look better on the outside but those feelings of inadequacy will stay there. That's why there are plenty of thin girls that are always asking each other if they are fat. They are physically fine but the mental problems they had NEVER went away. And so they are thin on the outside but they are not thin on the inside. If all you do is lose weight then you're going to end up like that. But you can do a lot better.

High school is a lot like the matrix. You are forced into believing values and ideas that make no logical sense but are embraced because the people that live by them are too afraid to question them. The people that do believe in them follow them and love them because it gives them a false sense of security. But I promise you that it is very fake. There comes a time in life where those rules fall flat and those same kids start running around confused because the "rules" change again.

If you ask yourself why you want to be like the other girls can you find a reason other than wanting to fit in? Think about it:

Why would you want to fit in with girls that run around making people feel bad, that have obvious insecurities that they throw around to hurt others, and that do whatever they are told to do in the name of popularity which means absolutely nothing in the grand scheme of things?

The most common theme I see here is that kind women that treat people well end up getting bullied by other women that decide to take their insecurities out on others. And because these kind women aren't in that place where they love themselves and are ok with themselves they fall for the ridiculous rules of the matrix all in the name of fitting in. They are even trained to hate themselves if they cannot do this. Sometimes these kind women become just like the agents... I mean people... that bullied them. It's a real shame...

You're young and this may be difficult because it takes a long time for people to begin to find themselves. But all I can advise is that you start to do what you love and be what you love. Do things because you believe in them. You cannot allow peoples' criticisms to get you down. You cannot assume that what others tell you is truth. Those people that tease you do so because it is all they know. They have been fooled into believing that it is acceptable to do this. They live in the matrix... You don't have to do this anymore. Know that you are special and that there is nothing wrong with doing things your own way.