Thank you all for your input. I realize that I should see a psychiatrist, and I've known it for some time. I have an unreasonable thought process when it comes to dealing with my own problems. I've always wanted to shoulder everything myself and find solutions on my own because I view someone that asks for help as a weakness, even though that's not true.

I don't like the path my life has been on, but taking that first step towards the right path is like climbing a mountain. I often overthink instead of just doing something, so I'm not sure how to prepare myself for a psychiatrist. I have a lot of trouble opening myself up to a vulnerable state (I avoid it at all costs). How did you guys deal with having to do this? Was it difficult for you?