Sorry you are having a rough time, Max.
I can only speak for myself, of course, but I was diagnosed with ADD at the age of 43 (about 4 years ago)
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poor sleep, excessive daytime fatigue, non-existent self-esteem, and binge eating/drinking. also, i routinely get up in the middle of the night and eat. doesn't matter what: chips, yogurt, cereal, anything...i've even made popcorn and frozen meals. because i have no energy
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I can say everything you listed applied to my life. Having ADD leaves you exhausted all the time. I had gained weight after going back to college, then I got married and we had a baby right after I finished college. I had battled my weight most of my adult life, but had discovered cycling lost all my extra weight and really enjoyed riding. When I went back to school, the cycling was dropped because I had no time. So I understand the former athlete thing to an extent as well.
ADDer's do things to stay awake. I was self medicating with food. My self-esteem was zero, my home life was more like room mates. Food was something in my control, tasted good, it was fun to go out to eat. My weight was climbing every year. I developed sleep apnea and had a terrible time going to bed. I would be exhausted at 6pm, after work, but with kids there was no bedtime until they were in bed. By the time I could go to bed I was not sleepy... I'd stay up and eventually fall asleep on the couch, then wake up and go to the kitchen and eat whatever I could find.
I'm certainly not saying you have ADD, but I know my exhausted state drove my nocturnal eating. After my diagnosis, I lost 95 lbs and have kept it off for 3 years. I just don't eat as much and I love to walk. The self esteem is back, since I walked out of my ADD Fog.
I hope you find some answers
