I was told that if I dont see a dr I dont have or cant use depression as an excuse for the way I feel is this true? I have alot of the symptoms and always thinking about killing my self or others or both and I self harm but I am not seeking help for this for various reasons most of them I dont think it will help it will only make things worse if people find out which most dont know. So do I really have it or am I just crazy? I'm hoping some one can help me figure this out