Yeah, Micheal (my fiance) wants me to see someone, and at least I know he doesn't judge me, since he's on meds himself for anxiety, he's actually said that he thinks it's anxiety too in the past; but I'm terrible at talking to people face to face. I just get too nervous and decide all my problems aren't worth the time I'm making the other person waste, and I always feel so damn self indulgent talking about myself, I'm so much better at listening to other peoples problems, always have been.
I only went to a T twice a couple of years ago because my friend swore by her, but as I said, I felt too self indulgent, and it felt like I was being rushed into meds exceptionally fast, I only saw her twice. However I suppose the way I was acting then it was probably a fair call.
I don't know, I suppose the idea of actually talking to someone officially, scares the **** out of me.