Dear T,
i wish I had someone like you in my life. I know you talk a lot but this comforts me and makes me feel at home. I was so nervous seeing t one that I couldn't even talk, she would not try to make me feel comfortable, she would just stare at me and not make any attempt to comfort me. I like the way we talk as if two friends talk, about our lifes our families, our likes and dislikes. I like the way you know me and understand me. You know that I will always be on time that if I am not something is wrong and you will ring. You know that I am frustrated with everything right now, so frustrated I get tongue tied and when you manage to get something out of my how you smile and say well now that I know that about you we have lots of work to do so stop staring and lets get on with it.

I like the way you make me recognise my talents and to reconnect with them, you said last week you wish you could paint and I told you how do you know if you never tried. You want me to paint you something and write you something but I feel so much but I am afraid to reconeect with the old creative me, I don't understand why you keep pushing it t. I don't know what you want from me, is this a test?

T please don't make me connect with my old self- I feel like that part of me has died. It has been battered and bruised and should have died, I don't know where I need to go anymore or who I am or need to be because I get hurt everytime and I can't do it anymore T I just can't.