Clinte is right..I try to push people away..and I do it like a moody child does.

if I don't understand things...if I feel outnumbered by those that do understand things...if I feel like I'm better off alone?

yeah I push people away...and not just to be separated....I want them to hate me!

therefore I feel justified being crazy..

it's all quite sad really.

and the "you are all idiots"..?

well thats an easy one...it's the same as "f--k the world"

make an enemy of life and everyone in it just even for a moment to separate me from my internal anger!

maybe then I can breathe properly...even for a moment hopefully two.

...and yeah I can get very personal about it...I have done ...did it again.