i struggle with the same thing sometimes patience is the key it takes time to heal and remember that God loves us no matter how we feel on the outside i know its difficult i struggle with it too but to feel his love is the most amazing thing i always try to put myself in the presense of people who i feel the holy spirit coming out of it works and rubs off on you and the key is to keep them as your close friends so you can basically refill when you are low