For me its about:
1. Money-but what isn't?
2. Embarrassment/shame-I should be able to fix myself if I just had more courage, more self discipline, if i could just stop being different.
3. Confusion-the one or two times I tried, briefly, I felt like the Therapist felt there was nothing wrong with me, that I was wasting their time, that they were just humoring me by seeing me and wanted me to go away. There was no attempt to diagnose, no plan on how to help, just me talking with little to no input from therapist.
4. Cynical-what good is talking about my problems going to do?
5. Fear-even if I found someone to help, in order to change I need to put myself out there, to do the things I fear, I don't think I can. Its soo hard and really doesn't seem to get easier. And, if I put myself out there will it really change anything?
6. Not worthy/hopeless-I am still who I am so people will probably still not like me no matter what.