sorry, don't want to start a new thread in case being blocked by others.
But what I have done right today, is:
1) Scheduled all my bills to be paid for february as i do.
2) i realized that "words" are just that- words. If ever i try to come back to that topic, i will have to be sure to include my frustrations i have already tried- which others may not know, that are suggesting-- but are like riping open an open wound for me.
3) I talked to my s/o about this morning, and he said he did not mean to come off as I thought he had.
4) I have watched at least one episode of "Too Cute" which really lifted my spirits
5) I weighted my cat

which also weighted me.
6) I sat with Mr. Boots when i felt sad, and felt bit better just by doing that.
7) cookies