I failed my microbiology exam. It's my own fault. I didn't study enough. It's past the date that I can get any refund by withdrawing, and after the second midterm, I should be able to determine whether or not I can pass and still withdraw without penalty if I don't. After finishing the exam, I was pretty sure I would fail, though I was hoping I could squeak past the 50% mark.

I keep not going to class or not studying. I am looking forward to the day I have only nursing classes, because I know I won't skip them. Writing papers is still hard, but less than it was. Showing up for classes and studying is the hardest thing for me.

It's stupid how hard I find school, because I'm smart and, when I show up and study, I excel. I know marks are not the be all and end all, aside for getting scholarships, but I am capable of doing better, even with mild depression. Being less than I can be also triggers the mild depression.

I'll forgive myself for this, because I have to to keep going. It reminds me of past failures though.