Hi Indigo,

Just the fact that you are concerned about being a sociopath and it bothers you may be evidence that you are NOT a sociopath. From what I've read, sociopaths don't have feelings of guilt or remorse, and don't feel badly about what they do to others.

It may also interest you that my husband says he hates people as well, that he only pretends to care about others to get something for himself. He says he can read people spectacularly and manipulate them any way he wants to. And while, indeed, he is very skilled at reading people and does have the ability to manipulate, I can see that he does not really hate people. He was badly rejected as a child, and this exterior nonempathetic toughness is masking a very hurt little boy. The only way he can feel safe now is by thinking that he can control others. This way, he does not have to feel scared and vulnerable that others could in some way ever hurt him again, like they did when he was a young boy.

I would encourage you to seek therapy and deal with the underlying issues that are driving your behavior today.

Peaches