Saw T today. Talked about this with her. It was a quite session. I think the dream I had last week about T telling me she's retiring was actually my own unconscious realisations that things are changing for me now and perhaps 'ending' is gradually creeping into my consciousness. It's safer to feel T is ending it rather than it be my decision. I still am not talking about ending within the next few months, BUT I think talking about it might be about to begin and as ready as we are it's always going to be a scary first few steps hence me not initiating but dreaming of T doing so.