((((hugs)))) Make sure that your MD who is prescribing your meds knows of your new situation. If the doctor doesn't have samples to give you, then call the drug manufacturer for freebies. (I think there's a link from PC on that.)

I agree that only you are being boxed in. Stuffing will work for a little while, since you have to have some thought to square this away and not feel the pain of the past. It doesn't work well, and it won't work for long before it will begin to seep out, maybe in new ways that are worse for you

I'm glad you have PC to come to... the members here can help you cope while you seek new alternatives. Take care!