I agree with both "sides" of the question, granite. I know how difficult it is for you because your T has never allowed email or writing, or art therapy. She only wants you to talk. I think you'd benefit by seeing an art T or a T who uses other methods like my T does. Someone who thinks "out of the box" and does what works.

On the other hand, you have made so much progress with your T! I think you're afraid to go "deeper" because it's going to be painful. If you can tell your T that, it would help. But if you don't feel safe with this T, and want to see if you can find another T whose methods or personality "fit better" with you, that may be a better solution.

I really think it would help if you could tell your T why you're considering seeing someone else. Whatever you do, I wish you luck and healing.