i hope you're feeling better, i really don't think an ambulance is such a bad idea, do you have someone to take you to be checked out. You can get the hospital help temporary, i know i often feel like i need the hospital, but don't want the ambulance to embarrasse me -but believe me the hospital can help you get on your feet. at one time i couldn't even dress myself or brush my teeth etc... i needed the nurse to help me take a shower...never felt so helpless but in the end I'm here and deal with functioning everyday stuff, but i know I also have a therapist and doctor that have helped greatly. I know some of my posts sound the same i basically try to support people who need to get help for themselves so they don't have to go through what i've been through. i hope you get the help you need and can get a good perspective on what's going on,