prettyjolie...welcome to PC...as you can see already there are good people here who are more than willing to listen to you and give advice...I think the best thing for you right now would be to talk with a therapist...If you are of school age you could go to your counselor and maybe she or her could suggest someone for you...Mom probably doesn't want to admit you are depressed because she doesn't want you going through what she has been...but you do need to take care of yourself and find someone you can relate to....the sooner you do, the better you will be feeling... ((hugs))