Divorced Single mom, 31. Two Kids.

My kids don't even want to be around me, I'm the couch mom. I say, "i'm watching this" when they try to talk to me.

I cry washing dishes.

I have one friend, I really don't like her that much, but she's my only friend. She's the only one that ever calls me.

My mother in law loves me more than my own mom. I told her last night how hard of a time I was having. She wants me to get help, I did...today. My appointment isn't until next Monday.

First time in a psych ward when I was 14, last time I was 23 getting divorced. Everyone stays at a distance now, afraid to trigger me.

I still have custody, I still am able to maintain a somewhat normal life. I have to work, I have to pay the bills, I have to take my kids to school, I have to feed the kids. I know what HAS to be done.

I still cry at night, I still push everyone away. LEAVE ME ALONE!! LEAVE ME ALONE, well...they have. There's no one left.