oh the joys of manic,and the crap with the downers,I have been having a hard time over the last month,and am starting to realise just how much the manic makes you really believe,but at the mo,against all medical,mental health advice I'm still going without the meds,but am not completely closed to the idea,and if these downers stay just may not be able to pull up and out,but I'm going to try a lot harder first.I'm using this as a kind of diary and anyones welcome to look and chat.