Thanks, W_I. I have been away from PC for most of the past week. Just trying to keep myself safe, not fall apart. Had the in-laws unexpectedly come to stay Friday through today, so had lots of managing to do to keep everything under wraps. They know nothing of what is going on.

Went to my first psychiatrist appt today and found her to be very helpful and good at listening. It was depressing having to tell her all the bad stuff that has happened to me and how I've been feeling and not coping--and had to compress it down into 45 minutes. But she took it all in and didn't make me feel like a freak, which was good. She has prescribed an anti-depressant which works well for PTSD anxiety. Said it will take a while to build up so that the panic attacks stop happening--I'm having about 2 or 3 minor ones a day right now. I really glad to have a plan in place to help my body feel better.