You have certainly had a raw deal SO FAR.The ugly experiences of abuse twisted everything for you.But you too must have noticed that times change--the abuse you suffered in childhood is no longer there for example.No doubt it is tough to be happy without friends or family but this too could change with time.Don't give up hope,your life conditions could improve tomorrow.But first get rid of the ill effects of past abuse.Here is a link for you
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