I haven't made up my mind what to do as far as quitting T. I don't feel he is up for handling me any more. He's getting older and I believe I drain him. I don't feel safe any more; not with T, or any provider. I wonder if any really care any more? I haven't felt cared for in that setting for so long. I'm so sad. I want what I used to have with my T. I am tired of my ups and downs....my rollercoaster. I'm still unable to leave the house much. I can't figure out what caused this or what I'm afraid of. The physical reasons that could cause this have almost been ruled out. I am depleted in Vit. D and my sed rate and CRP are elevated (inflamation) My bllod pressure is through the roof and well...we won't talk about the cholesterol. I will lower it on my own.