Hi paulashaw, welcome to Psych Central. I hope you are able to find people here who have similar experiences and can help you with helpful advice... or just simply support so that you feel that you are not alone. I find just coming here and reading other people's stories really useful... and sometimes I think of something to say which I hope helps others. My story is different to yours, but I know what it is like to have someone you trust betray you. Hope you soon find healing and some sense of comfort.