Trippin, I am so sorry.

It isn't 'just' really at all. And that makes me sick too.

Children do not have to love their parents. It is not a given, I don't love my father and even tho he is passed now it still hasn't changed. I felt sorry for him in a not so good way, thats not the same

Jordon loves you because she can, because you make it that way and you love her and show her that. It's not because she has to.

I Love you sis, and many others here do to as well. You are a beautiful, amazing, soulful woman, kinda hard not to love you I would think. Beauflow got it right.

No wonder your head has been spinning. I just didnt know what to say, you know when you care about someone a ton nothing seems like the right thing to say. That fear of saying the wrong thing.

How can you shut this down? Like in your heart space..head. I don't understand somethings..this is one of them. I watched this with my sister, and now another sister. I know beauflow said some people don't grow as you do and that is true. Where they are growing from and to where to arrive there..I don't understand.. maybe we are not supposed to.

Just know your own truth Trippin, and hold onto it. It's that whole rising above the ashes thing like a pheonix. Which you have done many times. Hold your head high, you have no reason to hide. I understand the avoiding of him, and I would too, but don't let that avoidance make you hunch down and make yourself meak. It's not you.