I'm the same. I said today to T that I understood that someone like me was hard to work with for such a long time (four years), because I never really get better (I'm always low or veryveryvery low). She acknowledged, for the first time (thank goodness) that she deals with me for an hour a week and I get no escape. The truth is that I have no good things ever, no self worth, just nothing. Sometimes I try really hard to pretend...but I've got nothing.

Lola, I really hope things keep heading in the right direction for you too. I think you can do it and it really sounds like T is on your side and will help you through this.