thanks for all of your replies. I think its a great site too and is great therapy and maybe i will make some friends here. I texted her that she shouldnt have laughed at me. She said "oh sorry". later she texted that it was nervous laughter.

I think it hurt more because she is my closest friend and we talk every day. I just expected that she would understand.Ii dont want to ever talk to her about depression or being bipolar or anything ever again. But I still want her friendship, it just feels less special now.