i am at the point of going to a hypnotist ti have it permonitly erased from my mind. I will pay any money even if i have to sell all my stuff to do so, I want the memorys gone. every thing. If i went back to whin myu depresion started then i would have to erase to the age of 16 and i am 31. That is a lot of erasing. The down side is i will not know my child if i do it and right now i cruantly don't care.