So ... after a few weeks of debate with the 'boy' he made me go to doc about throwing up randomly n stuff.

We went, he came in with me, I barely managed to answer questions, what I didn't say he said for me and doc ended up asking him questions about me and my moods etc - embarrassing

So it's apparently stress-related. No yucky anything else. I got more Celexa and some lorazepam for sleeping. And doc went ON AND ON about counselling.

So the boy says I have to go or he will get frustrated and ****** again. I don't WANT to. I'm tempted to make it up. I can lie convincingly enough I think. And if I say I am going thru work (we have an EAP that provides it) then he can't really prove I haven't.

But it annoys me cos I should be able to make my own decisions (sex is still being with held).

I suggested that I try reading some self help books on stress management and maybe some yoga or meditation. But that's not good enough. If I don't go to a counsellor that's it he doesn't want anything more to do with me, basically.

I am just upset about the whole thing, ok I can deal with stress now I am sure that is what it is.

But whatever I do isn't good enough unless it's what he thinks too.

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