My first post. This is the two year anniversary of my tumultuous marriage. We've lived apart for most of it and have filed for a divorce. He emailed me and brought me flowers. It just makes me so sad. I feel like such a failure. Our break-up caused me to go into a major, clinical depression and I was hospitalized for fear of suicide. I'm doing okay, but really need him to stay away from me so I can heal. Now I feel guilty for answering the door when I knew it was him. My sister will come down on me if I tell her. I guess I just won't tell her. She doesn't always understand and really hurts me. He's trying to be my friend, but I just can't have him in my life at all. I feel so bad, guilty, sad, depressed. Just need to tell someone. Thanks.