I'm glad things are on the up swing for you and I'm sorry your in so much pain atm. When me and my wife fight I fight I find it emotionally devastating. I just shut down and quit feeling anything. It is scary to open yourself up to someone and have them so angry at you sometimes. I hope your H changes and works on being better for you. You've always giving me kind words and I think you are an awesome person. There muat be some part of him in there that loves and cares about you, I hope he shows you more of that side and less anger.