I so fully understand. I have the same feeling you do. I want to let him in but I am not sure how to. I just want to be left alone then I want to be comforted by not by him. I don't know how to connumicate to him my needs and I am afraid to let him in.

My T and I have save been doing T together for 8 mo now. It is helping some. It;s tough but what has to be done to salvage things.

Please talk to a T and let them help you threw this. You both deserve it.