Grab a thought or an idea and just do it no matter how you feel. Feeling as you describe, I went to the library and started reading "children's" books, fantasy. They give hope and more ideas. You need momentum of some sort, any sort will do. Decide to take a shower because you feel grubby and don't like feeling grubby anymore or change/wash your sheets so they're clean and more comfortable, etc. Start a journal and get some of the yucky stuff out of your head and heart so there's room for more pleasant stuff. Put one foot in front of the other. It won't necessarily have a point at first but neither does college to a first grader.
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