Things in therapy have been tough lately. I finally told her about the purging. I thought that would make me stop but it's only gotten worse. I need to be held accountable to someone or something. I don't know how to stop alone. Just feeling a little out of control right now. I try to eat normally when I go out to dinner with friends but normal isn't good for me. I purge sometimes just because I can. I always know what to say when someone else is struggling and I know right from wrong but I can't seem to gain power over myself ever. I really want to stop. I actually called the psycho police (therapist) yesterday after I had eaten. It took a lot for me to do that and as soon as I hung up the phone, I purged almost just to spite her or feel like I had some sembelence of control in this "process." Maybe today will be better. Thanks for listening. This website has been very supportive.
~Sailaway.
~Sailaway
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