Is to bash this malfunctioning brain into the wall repeatedly untill it either works or quits working all together. i so tired of this emotional roller coaster. Im happy and Im sad and all I want to do is be unconscious. I see my doctor tomorrow so hopefully he can offer some relief.

I see a therapist today and im terrible nervous about it. I have to start down the therapy road all over again because my previous T left me high and dry. So now I have to start all over again.

Im sorry I just have ot get this out. I feel terrible. I cant handle this much longer it gets worse everyday.