Its cool to hear you think you're getting the help you need now. Maybe that's the purpose of this dream, to show that some thoughts and feelings are freeing up and its a safe time to be dealing with them? I'm not a church member, or even christian really but I hope you can begin to work out some of the guilt you're feeling. To me god is only love and guilt is not a game he/she plays. I think god is riding right beside you tho when you have these true moments of honest self revelation.