shortandcute, thank you. Caregiving to someone who is cranky is particularly hard. The mental stress is worse than the physical work. My S/O used to be a good companion a lot ot the time. It's not his fault, but he can't be as companionable anymore. I suppose I am grieving the loss of that. It is a lonely feeling. Many caregivers have gone through this, and many have had it worse than I do. I am in awe of the strength that others have who carry the load in better spirits than I do.

What you say about encouragement is so true. There really is no source of that for me. I am glad to have PC. Always, I find understanding here.