It is hard to bring up. You're not the only one here with that struggle. Actually, not wanting to tell anyone seems to go along with eating disorders, doesn't it? As well as doing stuff that you know is not good for you. Something about it seems to have to do with being self-destructive, which is probably what attracts me about eating disorders. I don't have one, but I want to weigh less than 95 pounds (which still wouldn't make me anorexic - I'd have to be like 83 pounds to be anorexic, since I'm short). I'm just plain generally self-destructive. Was trying to cut back on all the choclate I eat, but gave in last night to some. Didn't eat anything else yesterday though, except for some peanuts. Haven't eaten today either, except I allowed myself 2 squares of chocolate just now after I just hauled a ton of hay. And didn't use gloves, which is one more of my usual self-destructive habits. I do all these little things that don't seem like a very big deal, and I did mention them to my T, and he doesn't get very concerned about it. Maybe because he doesn't want to encourage it. I'm a self-injurer too. And I generally function pretty well for all the mental problems that I've had since childhood too.

So, I understand where you're coming from. Please try to tell your pdoc about all of your symptoms so that he can help you. I hope you will let us know how you're doing.

Wendy

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