Thanks (((((((((((( Sky ))))))))))))) and (((((((((((((( Angie ))))))))))))))
I can clearly see the distorted and/or blaming thinking in certain others (including stepmother)..... but still the PTSD response kicks in. Is there another harsh and equally descriptive word for feeling violated? For BEING violated? I do not think that one survivor patented that word

I have been VIOLATED many times
ggggrrrrrr
Fuzzy