Ok, and big sigh of relief! Am glad you didn't and sorry for me being rude. I was worried!!

Being alone is hard. Is there anything else that you like to do, that makes you smile, even a little bit? Or something to keep you busy for a couple of hours a day? I find that whenever I've split up, I need to go through the sadness, but also offset that with a little bit of time away from it, otherwise the sadness takes over, if you know what I mean. And good call over the drink. Drink is fine, socially etc, but drinking too much to drown sorrows isn't the best, unless you know that it will just be a one-off and not depend on it.

Hugs to you (and am still so relieved that I got the wrong end of the stick, embarrassed but relieved!)