You know what? You sound a lot like me! I've never been good at telling people my feelings--at least in person. Things are so much easier online, email, chat or text messaging. In person, I always "fake it", then once a person gets to know more me, (if they do) they are shocked! I truly know how you feel. I've had days/weeks/months like that. And it's so hard for me to even ask a therapist for help when I need it. Usually my way of asking for help is leaving a note or voice mail hinting that something is wrong. When things were at their worst I wasn't in therapy anymore from lack of insurance and money (like my current situation), so I left numerous voice mails for my child's psychologist--sometimes several times a day! I know it's hard. You want support and caring, you want to talk to somebody, but it's something hard to do. For me, I always feel that why should I bother that person with my despressive life? Or I think that some people might feel uncomfortable hearing certain things. Maybe you are the same way as me. As for giving advice to other people, I can be good, but it's also hard sometimes for me to practice what I preach. What has helped me before is to write a journal. You need to write whatever you want, whenever you want, and as much as you want--but you also need to do this DAILY. It's good to keep in the habit. I've been thinking lately because of my eating and everything else, that I should consider journaling again. There was a time when I used to write down five positive things each day, no matter what my mood. Sometimes that can be hard, but it CAN be done. The list can include anything that makes you happy, or good things that happen. I've been thinking about doing this again, too. You can even buy a special journal for this at a book store, or you can just write in a notebook. It doesn't matter how you do it. I did some journal writing for a change yesterday, but I've only made a mental list in my head about five positive things. Things will get better with time. Talk, keep posting, write. For now, here are some cheery feel better {{{{{{{{{Jonalexa}}}}}}}}}} hugs of support and friendship.