Hi jwrn, hugs...it can be very hard when we feel overwhelmed with problems and can't see a way out...sometimes all we can do is focus on one or two of the and make small changes, as much as we can. It seems you miss your family a lot, and I'm guessing you are not in a position to take a holiday and visit them. Have you got a computer and internet access? Skype is a wonderful way to keep in touch and it is amazing to see people as you talk to them..it might help you to feel closer and more suported if you can skype with your family every day or so (you can download skype for free). Another thing - that horible feeling that hits you when your children say something that hits our guilt button - believe me, that happens to every conscientious mother - sometimes a lot! It's actually a good sign, it shows you actually spend time with your kids and talk with them and listen and care! It's too easy as a mum to beat ourselves up over the things we don't do and forget all the things we do do. If you feel guilty over not getting their breakfast every day please don't...it is not something many families get to do...but it seems having breakfast together is something your son would like...perhaps you can arrange it as a special treat or a weekend special?