Well Jrwrn26 I'm sorry you feel this way. I feel exactly the same. But I have no significant other, no career, no friends and no one to even talk to about it with because the people I could talk to are too sensitive and I don't want to hurt them or worry them about me.

Now I am not trying to tell you that the way you feel is wrong because I don't feel that way at all. All I can suggest is that you try to see the good things. I know depresion makes you hate life sometimes. I'm 23 in what is supposed to be the prime of my life and I feel like one day I'll turn 30 and be in this same spot telling people my own age not to be like me... So yeah I know it hurts. All I can suggest is to take a pen to a pad, write your problems down and try to get your problems organized so that they are easier to fix. I know you probably don't feel great in your position but you're not screwed. If you were on the street and broke you wouldn't even be able to come here and talk to people so I see that as a blessing.

I pray in the morning, at night and random times in the day because I can't even remember the last time I smiled at someone or even in the mirror. So when I do pray I just ask for Him to help the people I care about. You know there was a time when I actually asked for forgiveness because if I didn't I felt like I couldn't pray for people anymore. That's how important having people around me is. Maybe I should think about myself more but I just don't feel that important really. And other times I just ask to be safe and for the ability to do things.

So whenever you feel low try thinking about the people in your life. You might feel alone but they are there for you no matter what problems you have and that's a great thing. I know this probably won't mean anything because you feel like hell right now but it's all I can think to tell you. I don't know what it is to be a parent or to feel like you're letting them down. But this is all I know and it's all I've ever known and it's all I can share with you. I don't mean to belittle your problems.

I hope you start feeling better soon.