Sorry to hear you are struggling so much. Maybe you could share and get all your feeling out, especially what is making you so angry.

Have you looked at the list of what to do instead and tried some of those things?

I read something today that encouraged me. I hope this encourages you!

Just for today, I remember I am cable, I am worthwhile, I am beautiful, I am lovable and I shall accept both my strengths and weaknesses for they are me. I will no longer believe the lie that if I make a mistake I am a mistake. My mistakes are the learning tools that I shall encounter on my life journey.

Keep hanging in there, but please feel free to be real and share those things so they don't build up inside.