anyway. Feeling that way. Went over to Lars house today. He would not answer the door. Nor yesterday did the phone call get answered. Mind wants to go to "maybe, sucide, he did." Not going to jelousness, not facribation of weirdness, like lover.

Just feel shaky, crappy.

At school doing math lab because don't fully understand the h.w.

Need reassurance. Have doubts about this man, I think about the guy alot. I can't get distracted. My pain is opening. Hope it won't get me.

Feel crappy. H e L P. razeljenny.