clinical depression, disability benefits, unemployment, loser, failure, right now I'm winging it. I receive the weekly Newsletters (on my mobile phone) and decided to at least try to reach out and seek some advice from people who understand mental and emotional issues.
I hope this email gets to the appropriate person. I'll be brief just in case it isn't received. The following is just the tip of the iceberg as far as my issues and battles with depression go. I'm 34 yrs old & for at least half of my life I've experienced depression on & off. But the last 8-10 years have been awful to the point I have truly wanted to die on many occasions. I have Clinical Depression along with other related emotional issues including Social Anxiety, Adult ADD, etc. I'm a single mother living at my parents home with my two teenage (14, 16) boys one of whom is temporarily staying with his dad. I haven't worked in more than ten years. I'm receiving Disability benefits because of the severity of my depression. One (of my many) issues is that I'm ashamed to let people know that I DON'T WORK & LIVE WITH MY PARENTS. I spend most of my days locked in my bedroom avoiding everyone. I've been this way for so long that I don't see a good future for myself, besides feeling like a crappy mother for being so inactive. By the way, I am taking meds & see my psychiatrist monthly. My question is, HOW DO I SHAKE OR AT LEAST COPE WITH THIS FEELING OF BEING A USELESS LOSER BECAUSE I'M "LIVING" (more like simply EXSISTING)THIS WAY AND NOT WORKING?