Real tired now.

I told Arvind for the umpteenth time: "I want to just be friends! I can't do the love thing right now, okay?!"

He doesn't understand.

He thinks he can love me up and cure me.

I told him to leave me alone.

I miss him. I am afraid I am going to cave and let him come over again tonight.

I better not.

Ani (mentor and support friend) told me to call *him*, NOT Arvind, if I get the longing.

I...am...working...on...mySELF...right...now.

No room for a new love now.

None!

I am very disappointed that he can't just be my friend!

Carol