I am being attended to by a licensed Psychologist who teaches graduate students at Harverd or Cambridge University. He is aware of my difficulties. Thank you for posting your thougtfull message. Being alone and becoming emotional can be lonely and cause me to spiral down a bit too much. Thoughtful messages such as yours, can disrupt this spiral downward to guilt and other potentially damaging emotions. I have been without money for groceries and having to travel by foot and bus in frigid cold weather while, at times, being under dressed due to my mental illness. I have recently gotten a case manager to assist me in not becoming too disorganized as to be emotionally desperate and vulnerable to thoughtless insults. Psyche central impresses me with its capacity to contain my ramblings to be benign. I have received funds now and I'm sure my ramblings will be less desperate. I am taking better care of myself and am becoming further in time from the death of my soul mate on earth, my wife. She died in november.

I am emotionally raw because she nurtured me like a momma and her death has left a large void. I am making great strides in findnig this nurturing from other sources and am succeding.

I have hope for my future being meaningful and providing the essentials for myself and step son.

I am managing my life and affairs well thorugh this turbulant time. The mental health providers in my life will affirm this statement aforementined. I have triggers.