hi jegsu01

it sounds to me like you have major self-esteem issues, part of which is finding it hard to say no to people ... maybe you think they only like you for what you can do/give or that's how you measure you're own worth? i'm like that, i can't say no without feeling guilty for letting folks down or worrying they wont like/value me any more. and what am i worth if i can't be there for folks, even when they're never there for me. assertiveness training and cbt helps.

and describing your emotions as a rollercoaster and changing daily ... it could be severe depression (which i have) but it could also be bipolar (which i also have) ... but only a psychiatrist can say.

i don't know you so have no idea what your situation is with meds or therapy or family/friends support but you are definitely NOT a nobody and deserve as much peace and happiness as anyone else.

i'm sorry i don't know what else to say, just wanted you to know someone cares