I feel really nauseous and anxious. I think a big part of it is the latte I had this morning; caffeine sometimes affects me more strongly than other times.

But I know that part of it is related to how much I shared with the school pdoc yesterday. I feel like she knows too much now. I think I worried her, and I don't like that. I feel like she has a wrong impression of me; yes, my symptoms are scary, but I am more than them.

Even worse, she said that she wants to consult my pdoc in the states within the next two days. She's going to call him, and...well, I haven't told him half of what I told her. So some things are really going to shock him. Also, I don't know how detailed she is going to be when describing my more severe symptoms. I hope she keeps things really general.

I don't know why I feel so uncomfortable with them knowing. They've seen so many patients in their careers, many of which are much worse off than I am. But logic just isn't getting through to my emotions.

I've been trying to take deep breaths. I couldn't pay attention in my first class because I feel so nauseous and anxious. I know that it's gross, but I hope that I vomit soon so that the nausea lessens.

How can I calm down? I know that it is a stupid thing to get so worked up about. Thanks.